#149

I feel like screaming. All this bad shit keeps happening to me. I typed this 10 page paper for my Hip-Hop class and lost the file, lost $20 out of my back pocket, almost got ran over by a taxi (if i would have taken one more step it would have been the end of me), and payroll fucked up my check so my $400 check is roaming around somewhere in the mail. I'm just in the worse mood and I'm hating everyone. Today I was screaming at my mom at the top of lungs for no reason. If it was 10 years ago, I would have gotten smacked lmao I really had to google some motivational quotes to like, CALM MY NERVES. I was getting all these boring quotes by Aristotle and Emerson, then I came across a song by Atmosphere called "When life gives you lemons, paint that shit gold". I hope something good comes out of all of this.

Hopefully, Sam will bring some excitement into my life when she visits this weekend. Fuck it. I KNOW SHE WILL. She's just like me. And I love me, so I love her. Every since 6th grade we've been ass buddies. She's that person that I NEVER get tired of. 24 hours a day isn't enough. Fuck all that bestfriend shit...she's my sister. I swear we came out of the same vagina lololol I miss her ta deaffff and I wish she could be apart of my life here in New York. That would be the "icing to the cake" for me. [Is that how the saying goes?] When I blow up she's the first one I'm taking with me ha